courage

"In order to achieve anything, you must be brave enough to fail" - Kirk Douglas

Pondering how this applies to me now. brave enough to stay at my job or brave enough to leave it?

brave enough to name gratitudes in the midst of depression, frustration and guilt? does that even make sense?

i am grateful for our babysitter who gave me time with my husband this weekend.
grateful for the bay, always serene
for hope and breaks and crochet
my kids, my husband, my nieces and nephews

i have to remember that it's easy to list gratefuls on a good day. it works the best to list them on difficult days.

damned depression

Depression has been my nemesis for many years. Medication seems to be the only relief for me but sometimes those stop working. I constantly tell clients to be patient, work with doctors, be your own best advocate...what's my impulse when meds stop working, though? stop taking them. believe maybe no meds will work and wouldn't i rather be med-free? if only that worked! :) luckily this change in thinking only lasted about a week. I took my meds and already feel some relief. damn it. so my grateful today is meds. i hate to need them but thank god for them.